had an incredibly awesome 1 year anniversary with the sweetest guy around last night , but today my wonderful precious oldest friend, otis went to rest in doggie heaven. what a blessing it was to love him his whole long long life. bittersweet.

i’m not okay. but i will be, and that’s ok.

because i cant write a bs spanish composition on a thursday night without barefoot pinot and wheat thins for dinner

hopefully it wasn’t painfully obvious that i wrote and prepped my public speech in a stupid short amount of time. but hey, no more speech writing!!!

no productivity wednesday. i’m winning at it.

where would i be without law and order svu and panera bread when i dont feel good?!

oh my goodness

i hate being scared of the future. i hate the weird feeling i’ve had this week. i can count the weeks until the end of the semester one hand which makes me just feel an unexplainable weirdness. i’m happy, of course, to finish this semester since my classes are  so boring, and i’m happy to see my awesome family again. i’m happy for my summer plans and my new apartment with the best roomie and most awesome friend i have. i’m happy to celebrate one year with the most wonderful guy i could’ve ever asked for. it’s so bittersweet, he is graduating and moving and our entire relationship is going to change. i’m excited for him to start his real job and to be able to visit him in one of my favorite cities, i’m SO excited. but this year has been the best year of my life, and simply having him here was a huge part of that.

I just cannot put into words the weird mix of excitement and melancholy and hope and fear that ebb and flow right now. 

sometimes this college town bores me like crazy. sometimes i need a city or something more.

Prayers for Boston. This is beyond awful and scary. 

Sometimes I’m so disillusioned with bad things that happen, I just have to remember that God is good and HE is above all of it.